The impact of this relationship affected me for years, and I think a lot of those emotions transferred to my relationship with God.
Through this experience, I came to understand that my desire for my children is only a faint echo of God's great love for me and for every person He made. I am just an earthly, sinful father, and I love my kids so much it hurts. How could I not trust a heavenly, perfect Father who loves me infinitely more than I will ever love my kids?
I was told I was good enough, "godly enough."
Note: Why do we have such a drive for professional perfection but satisified with spiritual mediocrity?
If you really want to experience God's supernatural provision, then do as He says. Test Him. Give more than you can manage, and see how He responds.
Note: not the way we usually thimk of testing god.