We are a “first-half-of-life culture,” largely concerned about surviving successfully.
Integrity largely has to do with purifying our intentions and a growing honesty about our actual motives.
Life, if we are honest about it, is made up of many failings and fallings, amidst all of our hopeful growing and achieving. Those failings and fallings must be there for a purpose, a purpose that neither culture nor church has fully understood. Most of us find all failure bewildering, but it does not have to be.
When you first discharge your loyal soldier, it will feel like a loss of faith or loss of self. But it is only the death of the false self, and is often the very birth of the soul. Instead of being ego driven, you will begin to be soul drawn.
Note: I can testify to the truth of this statement!