“As long as you can find yourself, you’ll never starve.”
Note: This gives me good memories of time spent with my Dad learning archery, firearms accuracy, fishing, hunting, & a plethora of other skills that would be required to survive in the wilderness. When he taught me where to find the Divine (God/Goddess), he taught me that Spirit was all around us in the wilderness. This all became a major part of who I am, for which I am grateful to my Dad. As long as I can find myself, thanks to him, I can survive.
I had taken a step back from my mother, put up a wall to protect myself from needing her, and nothing was ever the same between us again.
Note: Exchange the word "mother" for "father" & this, sadly, is very close to how I feel. I love him so much but, due to alcholism, I cannot allow myself to count on him & must maintain a wall to protect my heart from his cruel words during drunken rages. :-( I miss him horribly & I want the monster that is alcoholism to give me my Dad back.
I am not pretty. I am not beautiful. I am as radiant as the sun.
Note: I wish I had the self-esteem to even think this about myself, let alone say it aloud.
tomorrow will be more hopeful than this awful piece of time we call today.
Note: Reminds me of when I was little & used to stand on the hearth singing my heart out to the song, "Tomorrow", from the play, "Annie". :-)